Discouraged

My wii scale wouldn't work last friday- I think the battery was low or something, so I didn't weigh in again. :(

But this last week I broke not only one but TWO chairs just by sitting on them. :( In my defense they are OLD rickety chairs... but landing on my butt with a chair literally in pieces beneath me is pretty discouraging... And not in the cute Goldie Locks way either.

Chalk it up to a sign- I need to get OFF MY CABOOSE and lose more weight.

Also there is a stain on my NO SODA goal- which makes me mad. I ordered Orange Hi-C (which is super sugary and not a great choice to begin with, but it's not soda) from the Burger King drive-thru the other day and as I was driving home discovered that they gave me Tropicana Twister orange soda instead- I threw it away, but the bubbles burned on my tongue like I had committed a crime.

(Hangs her head in shame)

sigh- The comfortable bubble of time that I have allowed myself grows ever smaller- but I don't.

Walking

SPRING is just around the corner- and man am I feeling it. Now that it isn't so freezing cold outside (even though it may go back at any moment, and I must be prepared) I can get outside more with the kids- Getting outside opens a new door into fitness for me.

Tomorrow is my weigh in- and I will not allow myself to skip it- come what may- but I have a friend whose wii fit was off on her weight, and since that's what I have been using I wonder if I weigh more than I thought. :( Which is a discouraging thought. No- tomorrow I will stand on that scale, square my shoulders, and take it like a grown-up.

In the mean time, I am lacing up my sneakers and hitting the sidewalk. (I will be toting the kids in the little red wagon, should offer some weight resistance, and I won't have to worry about the 5 year old keeping up with me.)

I need to find my pedometer and start counting the miles. :)

Get out of Jail Free Card

I have had a rough week with the back- and I didn't weigh in the morning.

It's not that I think I've gained weight and I don't want to know how much- it's more that I am just not feeling it today. I know that if I weigh in today one of two things will happen...

1. If I GAIN weight- I feel feel super discouraged- I will berate myself for a general lack of effort and because of my back I feel want to give up. (of course I WON'T-)

2. If I LOSE weight I will feel like "Hey! I'm all good" and I won't put in the appropriate level of effort this week.

I know where I need to do better this week, (although I am proud to say that I have NOT had a soda since 12Feb2011- and I have only eaten out once this week again.)

I still believe I consume too many calories in my liquids- and I consume too much sugar.

CURSE YOU GIRL SCOUTS!

I did cook a new recipe this week (it's a new goal of mine to try a new healthier (this is relative of course to what I NORMALLY eat- so don't judge too harshly if it's higher in calories- it still may have more vegetables or less sodium or something...)) Wow do I use too many parentheses? (probably) I need to be a better cook- I think if I enjoyed it more, I would cook more- eat out less and be healthier.

ANYHOW- I will leave you all in suspense this week- and we'll see how I have done come next friday. (Maybe the cookies will be gone by then..... sigh.)

Fat Tuesday

I have never celebrated it before- but I think it may be a good excuse to explain away a box of girl scout cookies and 4 things of tapioca pudding that I ate today. . . and a large piece of Chocolate cake for the Relief Society birthday dinner. (Happy Birthday- and I am glad to be a member of the largest women's organization in the world!)

My back is on the fritz again- and I am left hobbiling away- pushing through the pain to do even the most basic of things- like changing a diaper, doing the laundry, or standing fully erect. . . As it is- I am slumping through the house like Igor.

I don't do so good with pain. Add to it the broken blood vessels in my eyes from trying to get my 10 month old to sleep in his own crib instead of on the futon mattress on the floor because I'd LIKE to have a place to sit in the living room. (Moving is the pits- and I have decided I like packing a HECK of alot more than unpacking... suddenly all that stuff that I said, "eh, just throw it in a box" is coming back to haunt me- and my back. The worst is the stuff I don't know what to do with because it belongs to the husband. )

Anyway- is it possible to still loose weight when one cannot move and yet consumes more that one's fair share of pudding? I wouldn't bank on it. But- there is always tomorrow- so I forgive myself for today- and will vow to make better food choices tomorrow! :)

New Recipe

Last night I decided to try a recipe from wordofwisdomliving.com- but with my own twist on it.

It was so good. Vegetarian Enchiladas.

Sauce:

2 tblsp. Olive Oil

1 can of diced tomatos with green chilies (pureed)

1/8 cup corn starch

1 can of vegetable broth

1 clove garlic (crushed)

salt and white pepper

Enchiladas:

3 cups of Mexican blend cheese (pepper jack and cheddar) shredded

6 green onions finely chopped

Handful of cilantro leaves (optional- but I ADORE the stuff!)

1 can of corn

1 can of black beans (rinsed and drained)

1 carton of chopped spinach, thawed and squeezed)

corn tortillas.

In a medium saucepan heat olive oil and garlic- add salt and pepper and pureed tomato and chilies. whisk for 1 minute. Add cornstarch to a little cold water and whisk until it's smooth- add to sauce. Let simmer until thick. Set aside.

Preheat oven to 400 degrees

Combine 2 cups of cheese, spinach, beans, corn, onion and cilantro in a large bowl and mix well. Lightly oil a 9x13 pan- spoon some sauce on the bottom of pan. (I tried to roll the filling into the tortillas but they kept breaking- so I just did layers- like a lasagna.) Over with remaining cheese and bake for 20 minutes.

I topped mine with sliced olives and more green onion.

Husband was skeptical - but liked it. that's my seal of approval. :)

Check out this Website

I was just referred to a website that I find very interesting- it may benefit you to check it out.

There are challenges once a week to change something in your life for the better- you can even print out a reminder card to stick on a bathroom mirror or on the fridge- and these aren't crazy things- just simple little changes (most of them) and they are just plain SMART changes.

For those of you who might not know- the Word of Wisdom - is a very important part of my life as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day Saints. It is the Lord's law of healthy living as revealed to Joseph Smith. I have a TESTIMONY of it- and of Joseph Smith. (Not that I believe any of my dear readers would belittle that- but I just wanted to you to know that I know it's true- and any attempts to persuade me otherwise will be in vain.)

The blog www.wordofwisdomliving.com does a good job of explaining it- here http://www.wordofwisdomliving.com/wow/- but if you want the word of wisdom in its entirety, you can find it here- http://lds.org/scriptures/dc-testament/dc/89?lang=eng if you're interested in learning more- just search www.lds.org for more information- or email me and I could tell you more.

Anyway- I think WordofWisdomliving.com is pretty cool and I will be following it from now on- trying to live a healthier life one week at a time- (which I was already sort of doing, but it's nice to have a little more motivation and guidance along the way.)

Weigh in 3/4

-0

hmmmm. No movement. But I can honestly say that I am not going to stress about it this week. My back was out and I didn't exercise as much as I should and on Wednesday night I ate at Hardee's and that's probably affecting the weigh in as well. (But- I only ate out once this week and for me that is an improvement.)

So this is a good time for me to evaluate how I did this week and what I need to change. I can't be complacent with a -0. I SHOULD be more upset by it. I think I take that "don't beat yourself up" mantra a little too seriously. I think that by saying "don't beat yourself up" to myself is what got me to this weight in the first place. Maybe I need to beat myself up a little more, eh?

SO- This week-

1.) No Soda (as always, but I need to write it down- I haven't slipped up at all!)

2.) 100 Crunches EVERY DAY - except sunday

3.) Replace juice with Water this week. (I need to drink more water- but water here is nasty so I have to wait for my Pur filter to fill and I am not patient enough I guess...)

4.) WEAR GOOD SHOES- instead of just clunky snow boots- that should help my back.

I'm Back!

So I did my first 100 crunches since Saturday- And .....

They felt wonderful!

I have been a weenie (not a 98% fat free weenie, but still) about trying them again since the Lasagna incident. But- I did them and my body remembered what was going on, even with the brief vacation- and I completed them without pain.

I am just going to have to be more careful. I think getting a pair of good shoes will help too, because one of my legs is longer than the other and my gait can cause my back to slip.

Anyway, there you are.